TRADGIC END

Today in the early afternoon little Blueberries life came to a tradgic end. When David was letting our dog in, little Blueberry flew to the door and landed on the floor. Before anyone could say anything, David accidently stepped on her. David called me at work shortly after it happened around 12:30 in the afternoon. I haven't stopped crying since I heard about this horrible news. I wish I could stop crying, but I can't. I feel so sad because she beat all the odds and lived when others thought she wouldn't. She turned out to be a little fighter and lived for almost 2 months. She didn't let her handicap stop her from being a happy little bird. I feel extra sad because the boys were home when it happened. Alan told me he quickly turned his head but Alex was the one who saw it all happen and was the one ran to Blueberry and held her while she died. She died in his loving hands. He told me all about her last moments I just had to know she didn't suffer. It seems like she didn't know what happened. I'm hoping that is true. I would feel horrible if he knew what was happening to her. I feel so sorry for Alex that he had to see something horrible happen to something he really cared for and loved. Alex was so upset he told me he wouldn't be able to come into work. I am so grateful to Diane for coming in for Alex. We both love her so much. Alex ended up coming down to work to be near me and gave me a big hug with tears in his eyes. He has cried so much. He is still so upset and very very sad. I worry so much about him. David who always said he wasn't thrilled with the bird, ended up telling me he also loved the bird and enjoyed having her in our house. She would always go sit on his arm or lap while he watched TV. That made me feel a little better. He just needs to keep his unfavorable comments to himself. He has to realize he lives in a house of animal lovers.

Before Blueberry died she had a wonderful life with us, we spoiled her so much. She also had a wonderful last day on Earth. I woke her up in the morning as I always did and held her for a while. We then had our ususal breakfast together, I fed her some of my toast. She then enjoyed some playtime in her sandbox and then flew back to play in her play area while I watched her. Before I put her into her cage, I gave her a kiss and told her I loved her and I would be back later. I then had to leave for work. I always hated leaving her. I was so excited to come home after work and see and play with little Blueberry. I loved caring for her. Aaron also had some fun playtime with Blueberry. He played with her on the kitchen floor as she chased his hands. And Alex who loved her so much, had her sitting on his lap while he was on the computer and fed her some cereal. All my boys loved Blueberry and took such good care of her while I was at work. To them I will be forever grateful because without them, Blueberry wouldn't have lived.

I can't stop thinking about Blueberry and all I will miss because she is no longer in our lives. I remember when we first brought her home and holding her all the time in a tissue close to my body so she wouldn't get cold. I keep thinking about how she would hop into my hand while I was watching TV and snuggle. That hand was hers. I keep thinking of how her life started and how Aaron, Alex, Alan and myself constantly cared for her and how often I called home to see if she was still alive or how she was doing. After we knew she would live I then worried she wouldn't be in able to be in a cage because of her handicap and thought she would be on birdie formula all her life. I was also so worried she wouldn't be independant when the boys would start school in September. It turned out she lived in a cage and ate only the best bird seed and treats had lots of fun toys to play with and was very independent. I know I still would have worried about her each and every day when we weren't home with her. I will really miss our morning breakfast together as it was just Blueberry and I each morning while everyone else was asleep. I won't forget the many times during the day when we would take her out of her cage for play time and to stretch her wings as she flew around the house. I will miss watching her play with her toys and how she would carry them around and throw them over the edge of the table or her play area. She loved shiney things and bells. She was so fun! I will just miss her! I will especially miss saying, "Here Blueberry! Here Blueberry! Come to mommy!" and she would fly to where I was and land on my shoulder. I know we didn't have her very long but she had an impact on so many lives. Not just ours but many family and friends. She even visited the residents where I work. So many of them are saddened by her sudden death.

Little Blueberry is now buried in my backyard flower garden, and I guess you could say its her only time being in the outdoors since we got her. As I was emptying her sandbox, I poured the sand over her grave. She loved her sandbox so much. She is now free to fly in heaven on perfect legs and feet chirping happlily. I know my dad who is heaven and will care for and love Blueberry and will have a lot of fun with her as we did here on earth.

W will miss you forever Blueberry. You were such a special little Sparrow. Everytime I see a Sparrow, I will think of you.

I love you!

Mommy

It seems.............................

It seems Blueberry is becoming an independent bird now that she is getting older. she will be 2 months old on September 5. She no longer snuggles or wants to be held anymore. I suppose it was bound to happen seeing she is a Sparrow, and probably has wild instincts in her. I never thought this would happen seeing we had Blueberry from the first day of her life and also hand fed her. She will still fly and sit on my arm and my shoulder, but that is all. She doesn't like to be held. I will still always let her out to play in her sand box and play area but will only offer food in her cage. Its one way to lure her back to the safety of her cage. I know she is molting and I have read on the internet that this is a very stressful time for birds. Hopefully whenever she is done molting, she will be a little more calm and more tame. We'll see how things go. For now I will enjoy having her in the house knowing she is alive and safe.

Having a wonderful life!

Blueberry is having a wonderful life! He has traveled to my work place so the residents could meet Blueberry. They all had a great time visitig and holding Blueberry. They were so amazed to see how fast he has grown. He has recently gottten another shipment of food, toys and treats to add his growing collection. I am thinking Blueberry needs his own toy box. We are now able to have Blueberry out more during the day to spend time with the family and play either in his sandbox or play area in the living room. The other day Blueberry figured out how to get out of the cage when the doors are closed. I haven't witnessed this event as of yet, but I do make sure I lock his doors with twistie ties, when I leave home. He has also been weaned from his formula for almost one week. That was a little rough on Blueberry. He will still do his baby flutters and bug me for his formula. Boy can he get nasty because I am not giving in. I am hoping he will soon forget about it seeing he has some real tasty food and treats to eat.

I am now starting to rethink that maybe Blueberry is a female Sparrow instead of a male. I have read that the juveniles and females look the same until after the first molting. Blueberry has been losing some feathers so hopefully he will go through the molting and then I will finally know for if Blueberry is male or female.

1 Month Old!

Blueberry is month old today! I am so glad the first month is behind us because now its just smooth flying. LOL

On Saturday August 2, I was sitting on the sofa after work and heard this wierd sound coming from Blueberries cage. I thought maybe he was stuck in his cage, so into the kitchen I ran. There was Blueberry happily sitting on his highest perch singing. He was only trying to sing. I guess that means hes not such a little baby any longer.

I am now only giving him his formula in the morning and the evening before he goes to bed. its very little so soon he will be completely off the formula. He really loved the millet seed sprig I had hanging in his cage. I thought that would help him get an interest in bird seed. It worked. He is more interested in seeds and his chopped up dried fruit than the formula. Marilyn told me its only to be a treat though. So I will off it to him when I am working and there is no one to take him out to play, like when the boys go back to school in September.

Yesterday when I went to get the mail I noticed a package sitting near the mail box. I knew I didn't order anything. When I looked to see who the package was for, it was for Alex. I showed Alex the package and asked what he ordered. He told me the package was for me. What a surprise! I opened it and inside the package was a beautiful Cannon digital camera. He told me had been looking at cameras for a while and wanted to get me one. I was so excited and happy! How nice is that? So yesterday afternoon Alex and I sat and read through the manuals, yes there is more than one manual, and practiced taking pictures and playing with all the functions the camera has. With this camera there is a lot more for me to learn. Also with this camera you make movies! So this moring I was practicing with the camera and making movies of Blueberry. I did accidently deleted one cute movie of Blueberry from the camera. Oh well! I can make another movie of Blueberry playing in his sandbox another day. I uploaded the pictures we took yesterday and the movies of Blueberry onto my computer, and boy are they nice! The pictures look wonderful and the movies have great color and sound. I know I can't make movies of just Blueberry. So I'll make movies of Blueberry and the boys together! Sounds great to me!

I'm Not Sure Why................................

I'm sure why I worried so much about Blueberry weaning from his formula and becoming more independent. It seemed to happen over night. He hardly eats any more of his formula. He is enjoying eating seeds and the other treats I have put in his cage. He is also having more fun in his cage. I rearranged it again and moved some of his perches higher. He was always looking up so I figured he wanted to perch higher. I am so glad I did that. He is always hopping between the 3 perches that are at different levels. Just because he is almost weaned doesn't mean Blueberry doesn't come out of his cage. He still comes out quite a lot during the day to play. We also have our special time together before I put him to bed. I still can't believe the last 27 days that a tiny bird kept me out of the kitchen, out of fear he would see me and want to come out eat all the time. Now I can go into the kitchen any time and sit and talk to him. No more staying out of my kitchen. My worries are finally behind me.